yes,i am selfish

i need u when i'm in trouble
i need u when i want to throw away my uneasy feeling
but,rite now
i dun feel like i want u
u r abandoned just like my previous stuff
when the time is right, when there is no intruders, when i start realize that i only need u
i can continue my journey with u
with this i officially PAUSE ur service
thank you for everything
let ur memory holds everything on behalf of me now
later, i will come back
with no regret what i've done to u

-atih-

dulu lain,sekarang lain

kalo dulu ak perlu itu

sekarang ak x perlu lagi

kalo dulu ak perlu ini

tapi sekarang ak x perlu lagi

kalo dulu ak perlu kamu

sekarang ak x perlu kamu

MAAF

xoxo said: only internship period can heal everything.

Practical versus theoretical

Last year,, during mapelei time....

i joined a discussion of my best friend, Ms X with her BFF, Mr Y....

actually they need a third party to solve their problem...

CASE:

Ms X broke promise to Mr Y..Mr Y spend almost half day to fetch that girl for outing.. because of some miscom, Ms X cancel the promise. Mr Y disappointed and stop contact that girl. Ms Y smells somethng not right with their usual chat, and ask the boy. The boy actually feel a bit angry and hate people who waste his precious time. then, the girl ask for

forgiveness. no answered from that boy. SILENCE.

After hearing (use the court procedure),

Me myself as a third party, deliver my opinion.

THEORY:

1) The girl asks for forgiveness many time..at last the boy accept it....

--> but usually girl will keep asking forgiveness even her forgiveness was accepted just to make sure the relationship remain like before.

--> The theory says: If the girl keep asking something like "do u really dont mind?", "sure u r not mad anymore?" to the boy...the boy will fed up and start to remember the past.

PRACTICALITY:

1) Let the time pass and do everything...it will heals all those pain...

i just can say here that: "U only can choose either theory or practical way if u r in this situation...sometimes, theory is acceptable when it became the practice...sometime,people prefer the practical way to solve their problem..."

xoxo said: i smell something fishy here~ there's no way to turn back!

Girl's first move?

Nowadays it is normal when a girl start to...

confess before the guy did...

i think no wrong with that.

it is permissible..

but with the correct way and polite approach..

1 of my friend tried it

she finally got her admirer

after many trials and obstacles..

xoxo said: congrats awak!!may u and ur beloved maintain in ur love~

Are we still like before?

can we be like before?

after the day i broke the promise?

can we forgot everythng?

after the day i said that to u?

can we have that 'mutuality'

after the day i make u angry?

can we have that time?

after both of us decide to be on separate way.....

xoxo said: sorry is not enough...that day cannot forgotten,,,that behavior hardly to forget...

Transformation--> 2010

Dear readers,,

now the blog's title was transformed into "XOXO crews..."

no more "CLUEs OF LIFE"..

hehehe

we still have 22 hours before get into 2010 era...

so i wish u HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!

xoxo says: alamak! 2009 wishes haven't fulfill yet...hu2...we bring all the 2009 wishes to 2010 ok?

Sorry, the service is currently not available

On behalf of the 'CLUEs OF LIFE' crews,

i would like to apologize to all readers..

the blog service is currently not available

the system is being upgraded

and the reconstruction still in progress

TQ

nikmat hidup

-hujan-kesejukan-kedemaman-kerja2 internship-

-rumah-masakan ibu-pengat ubi-kehangatan-

-home made hair treatment-facebooking-

xoxo: semua itu satu nikmat ^^

kerana aku wanita,perempuan dan ...........

Bismillah

Dengan izin Allah

andai ini takdir ku

ku lepaskan dikau pergi

jauhkan dirimu dari hidupku

andai kita berjumpa semula

aku terima jika kau tidak menyapa

kerana itu dapat menebus dosa2 silamku

hidup kata pergi,kubur kata mari

hati kata pergi mulut kata mari

she was stranded here...

i need another ears to listen to my problems,

(my head is going to burst rite now)

i need another mouth to advice me,

(the owner cant see the mistake unless someone tell what it is)

i need another eyes to guide me,

(lead me to the right path)

i need another hands to hold me tightly...

(hold me tightly in the train,,too much people,,i'm stuck between guys,,cant stand anymore)

aminnn~

p/s: wanna go home tmrw~ escape from hectic city.huh `-`in~

At last....

i can adapt with the environment
i can breath happily
i can throw away the sadness
i can stand proudly
and
at last
i can post the entry =)

p/s: waiting the consent to access internet here to be approve =(

New Move~

عيد الأضحى-Special Entry

Allahuakhbar...Alllahuakhbar...Allahuakhbar....
Allah maha besar...Allah maha besar...Allah maha besar...

This is my dad(ad sesapa leh lawan?hu2)

Aidil Adha-pengorbanan
menyingkap peristiwa Nabi Ibrahim a.s diperintah oleh Allah s.w.t untuk menyembelih anak kesayanganya Ismail a.s...

ku pikir2,,pengorbanan itu apa seh?

pengorbanan itu adalah....
ketika ayah berkorban demi membesarkan anak2nya
ketika ibu berjuang melahirkan anak2nya
ketika kakak dan abang memarahi adik2nya
ketika suami menikahi isteri yg belum dikenalinya lg
ketika isteri melupakan segala2nya demi keluarganya
ketika anak menurut perintah org tuanya
ketika teman berjauhan demi menuntut ilmu
ketika cinta tidak dilabuhkan pada usia ini

andai pengorbanan itu...
dapat melupuskan segala dosa2 ku kpd Engkau, Ya Rab
aku pasrah dan redha~

raya kali ni~berbeza(bkn sbb ak pakai jubah..hu3) tp sbb ak smkn matang

mgkn salah satu sbb
adalah perpisahan semntara ak dgn UTP,teman2 lepak ak,XOXO,rakan2 foreigner yg cool2 belaka...
see u guys in next 8 months..

best moment with my teammates for programming project(even ad kisah2 yg ak xkn lupakan smpai bila2 =>)

Never say good bye

The day will come

at that moment

i don't want to hear this word

"bye"

insya allah we'll meet again

even we're separated

but u still in my heart ^_^

Feed me,,,Inject me...

if i had given a choice

to choose between extrinsic motivation or intrinsic motivation

i'll choose intrinsic

but now,at this time

i'll maybe say that i choose extrinsic motivation

huhu

anyone? ^_^

barang hilang=perasaan hilg?

kalo barang pemberian org kpd kita hilg?

apa mksdnyer tu?

hmmmm

SORRY,,x sengaja

ad org rampas bnd tu dr aku

EOL: ak x suka pikir bukan2,,hope statement kat ats tu salah

terasa mcm......

terasa mcm........

nak tido sekarang

terasa mcm.......

nak makan ice cream sekarang

terasa mcm.......

nak balik umah sekarang

terasa mcm.......

nak tgk movie sekarang

terasa mcm.......

nak shopping sekarang

terasa mcm.......

nak keluar dri UTP sekarang

terasa mcm.......

nak berhenti belajar sekarang

terasa mcm.......

nak kahwin sekarang!

terasa mcm.......

@$% weng2 sekarang

p/s: kalo la ak taw masa depan aku cmne t,,,sekarang gak ak wat bnd2 tu sekarang..sbb ak sedar sndri,,ak ni kaum wanita...sbb tu ak x putus asa sekarang!

last post for this semester[maybe..]

kalo ak boleh paham org

tolong paham ak

kalo ak leh bce fikiran org

tolong bce fikiran ak gak

kalo ak leh mengalah

tolong mengalah ngn ak

kalo ak leh berundur

tolong berundur

kalo ak menyakitkan diri sendiri

tolong jgn nak sakitkan diri plak

kalo ak pilih sesuatu

tolong pilih pilihan laen

kalo ak tolak sesuatu

tolong jgn tolak sesuatu yg laen

EOL(end of line)---> terima diri seadanya..jgn ambil tugas tuhan utk menilai org laen

DOWN...Down..down.....

11 November 2009, 4.39pm, IRC UTP

Hari ni,,dah strt paper

Utk org laen la bkn ak(hu2…x sdr2 dri lagi)

Mcm bese,bgn pagi….shower,bersiap2, pack2 brg, menuju ke V3 café tuk breaklunch(breakfast + lunch)

Jam 10.30 smpai di IRC slps berjln kaki dr v5..

Sampai kt IRC,ak plh port baru..alhamdulillah,,nice view…

X ngantuk(sbb arini study BSD kot..hu3)

Dlm kul 12 tgh ari,,,satu psgn ni dtg

Duk dpn meja ak

Muka dat gurl msm mencuka,muka dat guy..cool giler…ha2

Tgk2 gaya cm bdk junior je(1^st year or foundation kot)

Ni bkn nk mengumpat tapi nk meluahkan perasaan

Arini mood aku ok,just nice

Tapi korg lak dh spoilkn mood stdy ak

Spnjg duk tmpat tu,,mcm2 ak dpt tgk ‘free show’

Adegan merajuk,memujuk,marah,gaduh,sedih(nsb baek r xde aksi menangis)

Persoalan di sini….

KENAPA KAT LIBRARY???

KENAPA WAKTU2 STUDY MOOD AK???

X paham betul junior2 ni

Taw la mood ‘itu’ msh fresh lg….

Tolong lah jaga hak org laen gak ye

IRC tempat utk study,tido,makan,gossip bkn utk gaduh ye kawan2 =)

p/s: wahai hati dan minda,,,sem ni ap aim ko ek???? Apa lagi hajat ko yg msh x tertunai lagi oleh Cik Nur Fatihah ni???

Terharu~~~

"guys,,jgn la wat cmni...t aku rse berat hati nak tgglkn korg...."

final exam semakin hampir,,beberapa hari je lagi...

industrial training pun mkn hampir....

masa aku semakin suntuk

terima kasih kepada mereka yg sudi luangkan masa ngn aku

even semua busy ngn exam kn

tapi msh ad yg sayangkan ak =p

Gurls.....

ICT/BIS Jan07...sayang semua...

Mgkn kali ni masa yg plg sesuai....

dlu ak ad janji nak reveals sape jejaka2 istimewa yg ak pnh knl spnjg kt UTP ni

no offence... no critics...no gossip k

post ni sbgai tnda terima kasih dan penghormatan kepada mereka

tiada mksud tersirat yg laen....

nuek and Mirul

Nuek as my PM and Mirul as 'org kmpg' aku...hu2.thanks for everythng =p

Wanpai--> rakan mutuality aku...kami menyukai konsep mutualisme..

Shahrul--> rumate wanpai,kenalan foundation,......thanks!

Haaaaa,,ni plg senior sekali..de taw story ak,,dr A-Z....thanks bro!

........................................................................

masa semakin hampir

sori kepada sesiapa yg ak x sempat nak bls jasa korg

even kek batik and nasi aym pun x pat nk bls budi korg..hu3(tu je ak taw wat)

ampun maaf dipinta

akhir kata,,redha kn pemergian ak buat sementara

ad masa,ada hari ketemu lg =p

lastly,,,all the best for final

Pisau cukur @ Gold Digger

Mengisahkan 2 org kawan baik Bella(Maya Karin) dan Intan(Fazura) yg mengejar harta lelaki2 kaya,,,

seterusnya bercuti di atas cruise

dan memancing lelaki2 kaya..

adakah mereka berjaya?

lakonan hebat dan PANAS drpd pelakon2 handalan Fazura,Maya Karin, Aaron Aziz, Eizlan yussof dan Shahredza....

PISAU CUKUR@GOLD DIGGER

aku cadangkan korg tgk bersama teman2,org2 tersayang,,best giler...ha2

5 stars for pisau cukur!

Oh,,My Gucci---> ayat fazura( i like!)